Friday, August 10, 2007

Flashback - 3

IN my life so far,most of the things have happenned by default and not by design- be it in career,relationships, achievements and failures . I have this unshakeable belief in fate and life and thats completely positive . I have made my decisions alright , but even that I believe is not out of design . Very often I say I take the call when to get out of something , but getting something and getting into it -life has always dropped them on my lap - both bouquets and brickbats .More of the former than latter . And in such scenarios,there is no room for decisons . They just happen .

In continuation with my flashback series , here is another excerpt
9/10/95
Life follows a pattern of its own. Sometimes I feel that I am led somewhere by the reins .But all of a sudden, there is a rut. A stop . And then stagnation .Until the moment comes when small surprising incidents land in your lap,totally out of the blue . There are these special sudden surprises that are so insignificant and yet so vital for us to believe in life . I believe that there is a future. Sometimes events just ride past me and I am lost in a maze as life gallops,tossing me in whirlpools . And then I dissolve slowly, agonizingly . Its like applying brakes suddenly on the highway as the signal appears from no where and then you dont know why and for how long you need to stop.

Tomorrow never begins from where todays ends. yesterday was totally different from today.Isnt life an adventure ? You plan,organise, decide and think you are in total control of your life . And yet you do not know who controls you ....

5 comments:

Pijush said...

Very well written, Nice post. Well done. Specially liked the following lines "Tomorrow never begins from where todays ends. yesterday was totally different from today.Isnt life an adventure ? You plan,organise, decide and think you are in total control of your life . And yet you do not know who controls you ...".

mark drago said...

yes-- that is life

Lakshmi said...

Pijush-thanks ..its written along time ago in a different circumstance..but life is such that it seemed relevant even now
Mark- completely agree . I often wonder why we think so much when something is acting upon us

RustyNeurons said...

I loved the line "Tomorrow never begins from where todays ends."
And surprisingly, the experiences have been similar in my case - where most of the positive things in my life happened by default.
This sometimes gives a false sense of security (it's as if, we know that things will work out fine in the end)

Lakshmi said...

Rustyneurons - thanks most of the experiences are universal . I think we all live on hope . That keeps us going and believing that things will fall into place .It maybe a sense of false security, but its hope nevertheless