In a few hours, a new day will dawn, bringing with it, the promise of a new year. And in a few days, a new decade will dawn in my life as I bid goodbye to the vibrant 30s of my life. Personally 2013 was mired in disappointments. I spent much of it in pain and in dealing with pain. I also spent much of it fathoming the meaning of the words, "helpless" and "futile." But among other things, as I went through the throes of pain, I saw the superficiality and hollowness of people close to you- those whom we call family and friends. But I also learnt that its the best way to deal with them as well . I cut them from my life, without any remorse, without any conflicts, without any emotion. There was no hurt. Just a quick realization and an immediate action post the same. However, what caused me immense pain was not just physical or about people. It was the realization that certain decisions made or not made a few years ago had led to certain irrevocable personal decisions. I also felt for the first time, an absence of a guiding force and I felt the need to surrender to the higher forces in search of answers. I also realized how cocky we are in the face of success and how insignificant we are when faced with adversity. And I learnt to accept. That certain problems have no solutions. That certain wishes cannot be fulfilled. That certain phases of life has to be lived and dealt with and that one has to move on, keep trying and give up when the spirit gives up.
I am learning the art of silence , to staying focussed and disciplined. To cutting off all the frills from life. To chop off all the pseudos and pretentious folks from my world. To read and realize the immense potential in life. To try new things. To let go of fear. To keep smiling. To being minimalistic. To persevere. And to acknowledge that there is a force above you watching over your tiny insignificant ego.
Wish you all a very happy new year. And wishing myself a happy birthday in advance.